Introduction | It Took Me Time to Say, “I Want to Have Influence.”
It took me a long time to say these words aloud:
“What I truly want is influence.”
At first, I hesitated. It felt as if wanting something—especially “influence”—was somehow wrong.
But now, I can say it without shame.
I want to live a life rooted in self-compassion,
And through that life, I want to become a small source of strength for someone else’s tomorrow.
That’s why I want to have influence.
Not for fame. Not for praise.
But because it’s the most honest form of prayer I know.
Chapter 1 | My Way of Life Began on the Day I Lost Everything
I acquired a severe physical disability midlife.
In one moment, everything I knew came to an end.
I could no longer walk. I could no longer work.
Even the simplest routines of daily life slipped away.
But my heart remained.
I could still think, still feel, still care.
So I made a decision:
“Even if I lose my body, I can still choose how I live.”
And with that, my life slowly began again.
Chapter 2 | Becoming a Counselor — My Desire to Protect Someone’s Heart
What saved me from despair wasn’t medicine or advice.
It was words.
It was empathy.
It was the quiet presence of someone who didn’t turn away.
That’s why I became a counselor.
Through this work, I’ve come to realize that the people who suffer the most are often the ones who can’t find the words to speak.
That’s why I started blogging—
To reach those who cannot ask for help, even if they desperately need it.
Chapter 3 | For Me, Writing Was an Expression of Life Itself
No one read my blog at first.
Still, I kept writing.
“If I can reach even one person, that’s enough.”
And slowly, the number of readers grew.
People began leaving comments like,
“I felt seen.”
“Your words made me cry.”
Then one day, I checked the analytics and noticed something surprising:
Over 50 people were reading my blog every day.
It felt like running a small café that was always full.
Like someone out there was quietly saying, “I needed this.”
That’s when I realized:
I want to reach even more people.
Chapter 4 | Why “Living with Self-Compassion” Resonates So Deeply
Because I know what it feels like to be unloved—by others, and by myself.
For a long time, I couldn’t even treat myself kindly.
After my disability, I blamed myself.
I felt useless. Unseen.
Then one day, a new thought came to me:
“Maybe the first person I need to care for… is me.”
And slowly, that changed everything.
When you start living with self-compassion,
You begin to see others more gently too.
Your words soften. Your heart opens.
Your story becomes something someone else can lean on.
Chapter 5 | Influence Is the Power to Light Someone’s Path
The kind of influence I want isn’t about control or popularity.
It’s the power to quietly light a small flame in someone else’s life.
When someone feels alone in the dark,
And they scroll through their phone and find my words,
I want them to feel seen, comforted, understood.
To someone hiding their pain, I want to say:
“You don’t have to carry this alone.”
And to do that, I need something more than skill.
I need resolve.
Chapter 6 | I Live with the Resolve to Be Honest, Even in My Weakness
Every day, I try to write just one sincere sentence.
Not to perform, but to connect.
Even if it reaches only one person, I want them to feel the warmth in my words.
That’s why my blog has body heat.
It’s not just about information or opinion—it’s a living thing.
That’s what makes a blog truly resonate.
That’s what makes people feel less alone.
Conclusion | May My Way of Life Offer Someone a Hint of Their Own
I live with many limitations.
But I also live with intention, compassion, and courage.
And so today, as always, I hope this:
“May the way I live become a quiet hint for someone else.”
I may not have great influence yet.
But if I keep writing,
If I keep offering these words sincerely,
I believe I can light a small fire in someone’s heart.
So I will continue to write.
To speak.
To live—
And give meaning to this life, through words.
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